Feeling like a hot mess . . .
Every year, month, week, and day, I think, THIS is going to be when I get organized and get my life together. Spoiler alert: It never happens. I am more organized than some and less organized than others, and while I could probably make small changes to make my life more efficient, it probably isn't going to happen overnight. And that's okay.
I used to get places early. Now I get there late. That's okay. At least I get there, right?
I have piles of laundry (both clean and dirty) that just somehow keep reproducing. But I have enough clothes for my family, and washer/dryer in my house, which is a luxury most people in the world do not have. So I'm thankful for the laundry. Even when it stares at me and taunts me to just fold it and put it away already.
I live in a fixer-upper. It was a fixer-upper when we bought it 10 years ago, and it still is a fixer-upper. We have done a lot of work and made a lot of progress, but it has been a much slower process than I would like. But I have a house. And it is warm and dry and a wonderful place to spend time with my family. So even though there is a continual home renovation project happening, I am grateful for the space to rest and (try to) relax.
Every year I choose a word to focus on - this year it is Present - and I've been focusing on being more mindful and present in my life. I think one step towards that (maybe the first step) is to simply embrace where you are, who you are, and what you are. Once you do that, you are free to enjoy the moment.
Another realization I am (finally) coming to is that I am not enough, not on my own. But I rest in the promise of I Corinthians 12:9 --
“My grace is for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
And in that knowledge, I will go home tonight, gather my family around me, and we will have a laundry-folding party!