Showing posts from July, 2009

How Rude!

In an ironic twist to my previous blog, someone asked me the other day if I was pregnant. Now, I thought this to be a rather rude question, as she only asked me after looking at me, which leads me to assume she thought I LOOKED pregnant. Now, for those of you who may not know me, I am very petite . . . and thin. However, I am just as self-conscious as anyone else, and that question truly bothered me.

Why do people feel that they have the right to say whatever pops into their minds? A similar incident happened last year – on the first day of school, some of my students asked another teacher if I was pregnant because they thought I “looked it.” Now, these 14-year-olds at least had the decency not to ask me to my face. . . why can’t adults show the same social awareness???!!!???

Now, since this is simply a (seemingly) polite way to tell someone that they are fat, please refrain! If you haven’t learned this lesson from sitcoms or movies, please take it from me. . . if someone is pre…

To Breed or Not to Breed, That is the Question . . .

As I hit the dead middle of my 30th year, I find myself plagued by this question . . . as a child, I most certainly would have thought I would be a mother by now; however, in my adult life my perspective changed drastically. As an adult, I haven’t been one to dream about motherhood, and those who know me would vouch that I am anything but maternal.

So I’m constantly going back and forth between wanting kids and not wanting them. At this point, I feel as if I only have a few years left to make this decision, and that pressure is making it more difficult. I like the IDEA of having kids – on a philosophical level, but on a practical level, I just don’t know.

I guess my biggest fear is that I won’t have kids and will later regret it – but wouldn’t it be worse if I had them and regretted it???? I guess I fear that I am missing out on something, and I’ve never been one to enjoy being left out of anything.

So the question goes unanswered for now . . .

Suffering . . .

So I just started reading through the Bible chronologically. I got the plan from a website rather than buying The Chronological Bible. I'm only a few days in, and I guess I didn't realize that the story of Job happens in the middle of Genesis, chronologically speaking.

I'm in the middle of Job, which is not the "funnest" book of the Bible to read; however, today I did have a realization about suffering. Throughout the book of Job, his friends continue to accuse Job of sin and hypocrisy because they believe that his suffering is a direct consequence of some type of wickedness. Job's friends are really vilified because of their lack of support and understanding.

However, up to this point, all wickedness had been directly (and immediately) punished (the curse of Adam and Eve, Cain's curse for killing Abel, the flood, the scattering of people at the Tower of Babel) and all righteousness had been directly rewarded (Enoch walked with God, Noah and his family…

Vanity versus Honor

So I went to bed last night feeling guilty about my desire for the Louboutin shoes. Certainly this materialistic streak must be dealth with, right? I started thinking about my love of fashion - particularly dresses and shoes. Is it wrong?

I Corinthians 6:19-20 says, "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body."

Does this verse fit into the world of fashion? I want to present myself well and look my best. When does one cross the line from honoring your body into vanity? I'm not sure, but I do know that I need to be less selfish and put the needs of others before my own (particularly since a new pair of shoes is not particularly a "need").

So even though I found these ruby slippers, which generally cost around $700 for only $150, I have to ask myself what else could be done with $150? I immediately think o…

Irrelevant issues on my mind . . .

As much as I try to avoid being self-centered and materialistic, I just can't seem to help myself. With Ecclesiastes 6:9 ringing in my ears ("It is better to be satisfied with what you have than to always be wanting something else"), I am desperately lusting over a pair of Christian Louboutin shoes. What got me searching for these infamous red soled beauties? The movie The Proposal, in which Sandra Bullock wears, not one, but TWO gorgeous pairs of Louboutin black pumps.

So anyone want to donate to the red shoe charity fund? :) I'm taking donations!

Self-Discovery that goes beyond Teenage Angst

Be Yourself - wikiHow

So there's actually an article on how to be yourself . . . sounds simple, right?? Not always - Although a good article, it's rather simplistic in its suggestions and "steps" to being yourself. As I get older, I find that being myself is not the problem; rather, it is that there seems to be too many parts of "me" to be.
Am I the intellectual that I would like to consider myself to be who is career-focused and driven to meeting my goals? Or am I a creative person who works on artistic pursuits? I once considered myself to be a budding photographer, and yet that has somehow fallen to the wayside. Now I focus my creativity on scrapbooking projects, and occasionally, crocheting blankets or scarves.
Am I the musician? Not really, although I took piano lessons for years, I never really was great - and although I would consider myself to be a "singer," I'm certainly not a performer, although I've definitely daydreamed ab…

Summer of Reading

Because I am sponsoring a book competition club at school next year, I have spent the entire summer reading young adult novels. I have really enjoyed diving back into good books - and most of them have been pretty good.

Today I finished a GREAT memoir called Three Little Words about a girl who spent 9 years of her childhood in foster care being shuffled from one place to another, where she was neglected and outright abused. It is a powerful story of survival and hope as she made it through these ordeals and came out on the other side as a fighter for the rights of foster children.

I would suggest this book to ANYONE - adult or teen - as it is a wonderful book, despite its sad themes.

Ashley Rhodes-Courter is a pretty amazing young woman, and an inspiration to all as she works to make a difference in the world!

Proverbs to guide life

So for the past month, I have been reading one chapter of Proverbs each day. . . although I have most certainly read through Proverbs before, I read this time with an intention to apply it to my life. I was quite sensitive at the beginning of the reading, wondering if I were the fool that was being described.

A few of the proverbs hit hard, especially Proverbs 29:11 that stated "A fool vents all his feelings, but a wise man holds them back." Ouch! I have never thought about my "venting" as a foolish act, even though it often created negative consequences.

Another related proverb (which I have LOVED, but usually always thought of other people rather than myself) is Proverbs 17:28: "Even a fool is counted wise when he holds his peace; When he shuts his lips, he is considered perceptive." Of course, my favorite adaptation of this proverb came from Abraham Lincoln, who said, "Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove …